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the definition of contentment is a state of happiness and satisfaction.

and the definition of happiness is the state of being happy.

and the definition of happy is feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.

but the definition of satisfaction is fulfillment of one’s wishes, expectations, or needs, or the pleasure derived from this.

so, apparently the definer as being satisfying is more relevant in this quest.

I choose it all. contentment. happiness. satisfaction.

it all sounds good to me.

It’s real…

So, being real, is REALLY hard…at least for some people. It means vulnerability, exposure, truth.

If we are able to maintain a facade of strength, resistance, and avoidance…maybe, just maybe, we can avoid ourselves.

 

duplicity

I know. I am a quintessential vocabularian. It’s my curse.

But I am currently hung up on this concept. Of a sene of deception. The sense of betrayal is prevalent and I smell its lack of loyalty in my midst. I am not comfortable with its presence. Although the unearthing of its truth is painful, I also relish in its exposure.

Bring it on!

 

Popcorn and Red Wine

So…every woman has experienced this moment…well, probably before they were 55…

whatever…lots of dot, dot, dots…fill most of my texts and posts.

This is a “needs no explanation” post. Right???

 

Table for one, please!

As I get closer to the proverbial empty nest, I am often asked “Are you worried about being alone or lonely?”

Frankly, that has never entered my mind. Should it? I wonder…

And, then I ponder the definitions of those 2 words.

Alone, I am. By choice. Often. By circumstance.

Lonely, I am not. By Choice. Not often. By Accident.

a·lone
adjective & adverb
1.
having no one else present; on one’s own.
synonyms: by oneself, on one’s own, all alone, solitary, single, singly, solo, solus; More
antonyms: with others, accompanied
without others’ help or participation; single-handed.

having no companions in a particular position or course of action.
“they were not alone in dissenting from the advice”
2.
indicating that something is confined to the specified subject or recipient.
“we agreed to set up such a test for him alone”

lone·ly

adjective
sad because one has no friends or company.
“lonely old people whose families do not care for them”
synonyms: isolated, alone, lonesome, friendless, with no one to turn to, forsaken, abandoned, rejected, unloved, unwanted, outcast; More
antonyms: popular
without companions; solitary.
“passing long lonely hours looking onto the street”
synonyms: solitary, unaccompanied, lone, by oneself/itself, companionless
“the lonely life of a writer”
(of a place) unfrequented and remote.
“a lonely stretch of country lane”
synonyms: deserted, uninhabited, unfrequented, unpopulated, desolate, isolated, remote, out of the way, secluded, off the beaten track/path, in the back of beyond, godforsaken; informalin the middle of nowhere
“a lonely road”

…it is love

To love deeply, as if there was nothing else to contemplate, is my ultimate desire.

I wish to immerse myself in the wondrousness of its complexity and to drink in the simplicity of its giving.

My Manifesto

Just when I think I’ve finally got a clue about anything, I’m absolutely sure that I don’t.

I am sure,however, that I do have immense faith in the power of belief.

Intangibilities are not what we are taught to believe in. “What you see is what you get”.

ummm….Not always.

What you believe in is what you become, what you live and what others know about you.

It shows in your face and in your actions and in your emotions. It IS you.

So, here it is. I believe in me. I believe in miracles. I believe in what we can and can’t see.  I believe that if we have a strong enough faith in our principals and the people we surround ourselves with, that we can manifest great things.

Raise your glass to belief. Cheers!