duplicity

I know. I am a quintessential vocabularian. It’s my curse.

But I am currently hung up on this concept. Of a sene of deception. The sense of betrayal is prevalent and I smell its lack of loyalty in my midst. I am not comfortable with its presence. Although the unearthing of its truth is painful, I also relish in its exposure.

Bring it on!

 

Popcorn and Red Wine

So…every woman has experienced this moment…well, probably before they were 55…

whatever…lots of dot, dot, dots…fill most of my texts and posts.

This is a “needs no explanation” post. Right???

 

Table for one, please!

As I get closer to the proverbial empty nest, I am often asked “Are you worried about being alone or lonely?”

Frankly, that has never entered my mind. Should it? I wonder…

And, then I ponder the definitions of those 2 words.

Alone, I am. By choice. Often. By circumstance.

Lonely, I am not. By Choice. Not often. By Accident.

a·lone
adjective & adverb
1.
having no one else present; on one’s own.
synonyms: by oneself, on one’s own, all alone, solitary, single, singly, solo, solus; More
antonyms: with others, accompanied
without others’ help or participation; single-handed.

having no companions in a particular position or course of action.
“they were not alone in dissenting from the advice”
2.
indicating that something is confined to the specified subject or recipient.
“we agreed to set up such a test for him alone”

lone·ly

adjective
sad because one has no friends or company.
“lonely old people whose families do not care for them”
synonyms: isolated, alone, lonesome, friendless, with no one to turn to, forsaken, abandoned, rejected, unloved, unwanted, outcast; More
antonyms: popular
without companions; solitary.
“passing long lonely hours looking onto the street”
synonyms: solitary, unaccompanied, lone, by oneself/itself, companionless
“the lonely life of a writer”
(of a place) unfrequented and remote.
“a lonely stretch of country lane”
synonyms: deserted, uninhabited, unfrequented, unpopulated, desolate, isolated, remote, out of the way, secluded, off the beaten track/path, in the back of beyond, godforsaken; informalin the middle of nowhere
“a lonely road”

perserverance

As I mentioned in my previous post, I’m no quitter. I know I rallied for actually doing it. Quitting. And I do mean to begin quitting some things. Like keeping absolutely everything because I was raised NOT to get rid of anything. But I am quitting that. Stuff. And, I’m quitting some ideas and even some people.

But, quitting on myself and my convictions. That is a NO.  I love the definitions below.

“hammer away”…”stop at nothing”…”leave no stone unturned”

I shall perservere, dammit, I’m no quitter…except when necessary.

per·se·vere
ˌpərsəˈvir/
verb
continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no prospect of success.
“his family persevered with his treatment”
synonyms: persist, continue, carry on, go on, keep on, keep going, struggle on, hammer away, be persistent, be determined, see/follow something through, keep at it, press on/ahead, not take no for an answer, be tenacious, stand one’s ground, stand fast/firm, hold on, go the distance, stay the course, plod on, stop at nothing, leave no stone unturned;

I Quit!

Fear of failure is the perpetrator of not quitting.

My entire life I have “not quit” anything. ever.

And, in my business life, and for most of my married life, that was the right choice.

But, there comes a time when it becomes necessary to allow yourself to just quit. To say, I’m done. Fearlessly, and with conviction.

And, in that ability to choose “quitting”, comes the success of that particular destination… 

Word….

Debate…

In case you weren’t clear on the definition.

Mainly because the debates we witness now aren’t formal, nor do they represent much of the actual definition.

de·bate
dəˈbāt/
noun
1.
a formal discussion on a particular topic in a public meeting or legislative assembly, in which opposing arguments are put forward.
synonyms: discussion, discourse, parley, dialogue; More

verb
verb: debate; 3rd person present: debates; past tense: debated; past participle: debated; gerund or present participle: debating
1.
argue about (a subject), especially in a formal manner.
“the board debated his proposal”
synonyms: discuss, talk over/through, talk about, thrash out, hash out, argue,

…it is love

To love deeply, as if there was nothing else to contemplate, is my ultimate desire.

I wish to immerse myself in the wondrousness of its complexity and to drink in the simplicity of its giving.